Friday, October 27, 2006

Shine on Forever My Warm Breeze

Hola Maria
This is the end on day 1 of 2 days that I wait to see you once again and wait to find out what your mind is doing. The day went well and the lessons have gone well. I am on the way to passing the course.
Through the course of the day I have thought of you so much. I care for you very much as if you were my child. I do not like to see you upset or sad.
We need to go slowly and discover each other, that part is fun. We already know we like each other, very much..
I am sorry for putting pressure on you about staying here in Bariloche but as I said in my email, I would stay anywhere in the world for the right person. So please do let this be an issue for you.
I have made a decision. I am staying much longer than I had planned. So no matter what your outcome of us is. I will just try harder to romance you and romancing you is a joy to have.
I was always looking for you but did not expect to find you, here in Bariloche but I am very happy that I have found you and so soon.
Me, asking you to be my girlfriend is not a marriage proposal but all girlfriend/boyfriend relationships do drift in that direction. It is a request that we be friends and lovers and we can walk anywhere, holding hands and people will see us and think; ‘they are friends and lovers’. We can take time to discover each other.
I do not know all you have been through and I do not need to know as I can see the effect it is has on you and how protective you are of your emotions and your children. I respect this. I want to show you that a relationship does not have to have a bad outcome. It can be warm and beautiful forever. It is somewhere for you to feel safe at all times. It is a place where you are free to express yourself in ever way. It is a place where you can grow and grow together.
I can see there is so much love and affection inside you. I see it in the way you treat your children, in the way you smile at people at your work and the way you smile at me. I adore this about you. It makes me smile. I know there is more of this emotion inside you, for me or someone like me but it is hard for it to break free for fear of being hurt. I can write words and say ‘I will not hurt you’ but you will never truly believe this until you stay with me and over time find out for yourself that my words are true.
I adore you, I admire you, I am in awe of you, I respect you, I care for you and this all adds up to the fact that I love you. I am honest and honest with my affections and I feel my affections are safe with you. I know you will never intentionally hurt me.
I have made it clear that I will do whatever makes being with me easier. I am happy to meet with your parents, to meet with your sister or friends. I also hope I can be a good friend to your children.
Wherever your thoughts go with us, I will respect your decision, your outcome. I will support you in any way possible. I will be the last person on earth to make your life difficult. I am here to add to your life not to take away from it.
All this I give to you and you are free to accept this or put it into a place where you are comfortable with it all.
I now do not know when to give you this letter. Tomorrow, on you second day off but then I might be interfering with your thought process. Maybe when you come back to work but you may have already made a decision and this will just make it hard for you. Although, you may have made a decision and this strengthens your decision..
Oh well, when the time is right I will know.
Whether together or apart I know we will be in each others hearts.

Shine on forever my warm breeze.
Mark

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